Look, life is random. Why are you born to your parents? Why do you live where you live? Why were you bullied at school? Why, why, why?
Do you have the answers? I doubt it.
Instead of wishing that things were different, accept the circumstances of your life. No matter how bad they are.
Things are what they are. Look at it this way: Regardless of where you are in life, you are there for some reason. God, the universe, invisible forces.
It doesn’t matter what it is. But when life expects something from you, show up and play your part.