To my Strength.!

In the darkest of the days, the thought of you enlightens my soul
The memory of the days spent with you makes me dance under the moonlit sky
Makes my heart pumps fast
Causes my eyes to well up with tears
Illuminates my surroundings which once got darkened
The memory of every time you praised me, causes me to love every inch of myself despite all the flaws I once see in me.

Desires of Acceptability !

We are leaders of our own world. We have control over every damn thing that we want to do
We have powers to stop people  from doing to us what we don’t want
We are not worthless
We are not weak enough to give the control of our kingdom to somebody else
It’s our little world, we have its keys, we know what makes it fancy, how to keep peace in it
We have our territories of bliss nd grief which only we are allowed to cross
The kingdom ruins if we let others to rule over it, no territories would remain the same, no secrecy, no charm would left for people to come to know to talk to us
We are individuals, we have our own owned kingdoms
Once it’s control is given to others, no individuality remains  and desires of acceptance begins !

 

Saturday Feels !

She was left with unsaid complains and unexplainable reasons to justify why the other person owes her an apology !

Self-loathing!

Regrets that could make us hate ourselves to a point where anyone who owes us an aplogy seems perfect and right in his own way. Guilt kills us from inside makes us dead and instills in us a desire to die and escape.
Each individual seems blessed and you being the most sinful ever exist.
Each hurting word once said coming right back at you showing you your sinful character for which punishments have befallen on you.
Each taunt finding it’s way back at you, scaring you from what’s next.
Your hands couldn’t get up for forgiveness out of remorse and this frightens you even more.
You don’t want to die but guilts and intrusive thoughts couldn’t let you live like normal being.
You’re scared, yes you’re afraid from what’s next !