At some point in a life, you may feel that it is something or someone you’ve been looking for. However, some scenarios convince you to alter your thoughts and you come back to a point where you trusted no one and invested into someone the least.
Life and our encounter with people is like climbing up a ladder and coming back to the first step.
Someday you meet a person, talk to him/her, spend time, and become friends. You climb each step of a ladder by gradually giving your care, trust, and love to that person. In doing so, you trip, you step back, make slower movements, but still gather your courage and trust and climb to the top.
After certain time, situations forced you to lessen your care and with hurtful changing behaviours of that person, your trust looses and love diminishes. You come back to the first step waiting and hoping to climb up again.
It is what it is and it is called a ‘life.’- ‘The Ladder of Life.’
How does it feel like to get rejected?
How does it feel like to get misunderstood?
How does it feel like to not get the care in return?
How does it feel like to not get the love in return?
It feels like unscrewing a nail that was pinned into an abyss of your skin.
I cared for you
Ignored everyone around me
Became indifferent to others
Never tried to make another friend
You mattered the most to me
Your likes became my likes
Your dislikes became my dislikes
Your enemies became my enemies
Your friends became my friends
Adopted your way of talking
Adopted your dressing style
Adopted your way of living
Admired you for who you were
Accepted you the way you were
Never complained you everytime you yelled at me
Always initiated conversations
Always apologised first
Just to be with you, to be your friend
I gave my 100% to you, to our friendship
But what you did to me?
You broke my heart
You were never my friend
You always pretended
Infact you never faked it
I didn’t understand you
I trusted you blindly
I never considered you wrong
I never wanted to loose you
But you didn’t deserve me
I never imagined you to be that bad
My heart never accepted that, my brain always did.
You were not my friend
You were fake.